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(no subject) [Nov. 30th, 2005|02:48 am]
seeking the perfect body, the perfect life...

[Current Music |money - pink floyd]

alright i have a confession to make: lately (being about the past month) Ive been eating whatever i want. and when i say that, i mean ANYTHING i wanted to eat, i ate. And i gained like 17 pounds!! im up to 115 and i want to kill myself. (i was down to 97-98) i cant believe i let myself go like that. it started when my mom started getting worried about my "eating habits" again, and so i started eating when she was around...but the only thing is, once i start eating i feel as if ive failed already, so theres no harm in eating more! I know thats not right, but i cant really help it. i hate myself right now... :-(. Ive been too ashamed to post on this lj the whole time, untill i decided to face my problem...i have no self control left in me. I started fasting again yesterday, but we went out to dinner with my grandma and grandpa and my grandpa isnt doing too well, and i was pretty stressed and whatnot about that, so i ate more than i should have. i ate my whole salad. And today all i ate was two little pineapple pieces. I even have labeled on my calander what and when im going to eat. most days its labeled: only: ld (meaning, a little dinner) <-- cause my mom would start freaking again if i didnt eat at dinner. and other days, like the weekend, when i know that we dont eat dinner as a family, i have labeled: none. Once i get back on track ill be fine, and i know ill be able to do it, but the problem is getting back on track in the first place

thank you for listening to my rantings :-(

peace out

(x-posted in my lj)
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(no subject) [Nov. 10th, 2005|04:01 pm]
seeking the perfect body, the perfect life...

[Current Mood |happyhappy]

Hi Im Sam, and I am on a mission to be skinny! I have lost a little over 10 pounds in less than a month, I work out like its my job and avoid. I have worked out 5 times since monday and will probably work out agian today even though I feel like my body is about to give in I have a headache and have not eaten anything today... and hopefully won't. I know a decent amout about this stuff since it was my life a while back so if you have questions I may be able to help.
age 18
Ht 5'4
cw 120
hw 160
lw 115
stg 115
ltg 110
Oh and I am kinda new to LJ so I have no friends if anyone wants to add me....that would make me happy!
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(no subject) [Sep. 18th, 2005|11:12 am]
seeking the perfect body, the perfect life...

come on ladies! i know ive slacked off a little with this community, but i really want it to work! if any of you would help me, and tell people about this community, it would be so much appreciated!

thanks in advance!!

<3 Ashlyn, your mod
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first post [Jun. 2nd, 2005|05:44 pm]
seeking the perfect body, the perfect life...

hey guys. (if anyone ever finds this community) im the moderator of this community and im very happy that youre here. if anyone could start up a convo or something. You know, the tipocal community things. Feel free to im me or friend me and i hope this community becomes a good one!
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